Now that I am done giving birth I really feel I can knuckle down and lose my blubber. After Hadassah I did lose a lot of weight but at the back of my mind I did have that horrid thought of what's the point? No excuses now. So I have been thinking about how I will lose the extra weight. Currently I am just cutting back on the amount I eat. I have three more weeks until I can start exercising and that makes me impatient. By the end of summer I would love to be 135lb. That is my goal anyways and that is about 32lbs. Once I get there I will see how fit I am and how I feel and whether I want to go lower. I fluctuated between 120lbs and 125lbs pre-pregnancies but I'd rather be a bit heavier and a lot more fit. After Hadassah I got down to 140lbs and got stuck when I stopped exercising. So, my weight gain this pregnancy was significantly less.
The funny thin is, I don't think of my self as overweight. Oh if I look at my reflection too long I can get quite depressed but I still imagine myself skinny. Sometimes when I do catch my reflection I don't even recognize the person if the mirror. I don't want the now me to be the norm. And while my stretch marks and extra skin is not going to disappear I would like to be a healthy weight. The biggest place I notice the weight is when I ride (and it is not just because of the not so flattering riding pants!) I don't feel as balanced and I sure find a lot of things a lot harder.
I hope to stay accountable on the weight loss and hopefully don't overeat too much. Why I over eat is not some deep reason it is simply the fact that I love food and no longer have my high metabolism to fall back on. Pregnancy took care of that!
I know what you mean about not thinking of yourself as overweight. In my mind my body is still pre-pregnancy, but it's those mirrors and scales. They tell a different story. Maybe that's why I have a problem losing weight!
ReplyDeleteI felt I should come back and just clarify that I can't lost weight because I eat too much, haha. It's noone or nothing else's fault but mine.
ReplyDeleteAnd your About Me blurb still lists Owen as unborn. He might be feeling a little put out by that. :-P
I wonder if thinking of yourself as thin when your not is an actual condition. The polar opposite of anorexia.
ReplyDeleteI should probably update Owen's status so he doesn't feel injured and need counseling as an adult.